My Newest Adventure

Sorry its been so long since I've written on here, its not that I've had nothing to say, but more that i don't know how to say it. Since Xss and I have now travelled the world, and survived, we are a stronger team than ever. This October marks 10 years since we met and started sending carefully planned invites through comedically worded texts to each other resulting in copious amounts of snogging. Over this decade we have entwined with each other and shaped ourselves along the way (something that used to make me binge all night with fear, but when you are here and equally committed its not so bad).

Ok, enough gushing, but having got this base firmly established we feel that we are ready to start our family. Our next big adventure. So now world travelling has been replaced with baby making; temporarily. I am now 11 weeks pregnant, and full of anxiety for the future. Am i going to turn into someone who puts babies in blue nappies being delivered by storks all over my blog? Am i going to talk about breast feeding and cracked nipples to the cashier at Morrison's? Will i think my music taste will make my child demonic and ban all talent and apathy from my home!

Well, for the moment i have turned into a tired, burping machine. I feel like i can complain about the negative side effects of pregnancy as next time, I'll have to suck it up and get on with it, because I'll already have another child who wont patiently listen. But this time- well why not be accurate with my experiences, i know there is a club i am joining which says there are certain things you shouldn't share with the uninitiated (or unpregnated here) but well I'm not willing to prescribe to the 'isn't pregnancy wonderful and noble' image just yet. I am so tired i have to nap for half an hour after work each day, this has seriously curbed my going out behaviour, but luckily the timing coincided with several friends getting serious about their boys and wanting to be home more too. I only feel sick when i am tired or hungry, which is almost all the time i am awake. 'People' say this will be over soon, so I'm riding each day out sitting on the sofa burping and being fed by Xss, concentrating on not being sick. Glowing- i think not.

P.S Spinster keep this under your hat until i've finished applying for my SW training course

Sick note

I was off work with a stomach upset last week and have now had the difficult job of filling in a complicated electronic form logging my sickness with work rather than just casually telling my manger who was away. Most answers have to be provided by picking an answer from various drop down menu's. However, stomach bug wasn't listed and it certainly wasn't an infectious disease, so i chose the dignified version of it, Internal Dispute.

It wasn't until the form was submitted that i realised this means something significantly different and now its going to show up on my work records forever!

My new love

I absolutely LOVE Extreme Makeover home edition, a make over show from the USA which typically involves finding some wonderful needy family and knocking down their house and building them another one. I am no wuss but every time it almost brings me to tears. Each family seems genuinely lovely and the nicest most selfless people ever, but on top of that the American general public volunteer their time and effort to make it happen- hundreds of them. Its something we don't have in Britain, a society that will go out of its way to rally around someone in need. There are the odd people, but not en masse like in America. Its so brilliant and inspiring to see so many people who care about each other. A general recognition that people need help and no jealous or judgement- well why should they get a home and not me?

The show today had a lady who had escaped domestic violence with her 8 children and could only afford a two up two down house. It was poor quality, had flooded, had all second hand partly broken furniture and they had paid an electrician to improve some things and he'd made loads of holes in the walls and floors and then run off with the money. A team of volunteers and businesses donated time and products to build them a bigger house, get them a new car, pay off the rest of the mortgage and finally give them $100,000 college fund so the kids could go to university! They were so grateful, it was beautiful. I think most people can catch this show as i only have freeview. Its on 'Really' in the mornings.

Following the riots, i hope that the British public are beginning to realise that there is power in group action, and to recognise that an individuals voice can make a big difference when added to others. However, i wonder how long it will take them to realise this can be done to make good as well?

P.S i found Extreme makeover, UK edition on TV today. Vastly different show- individuals getting plastic surgery, haircuts and liposuction to make them physically more attractive! not quite the same loving buzz to this one. The British really need to up their game.